Goal Setting in place... Ready, set, let go....

So, I've been overwhelming myself. I want so badly to be this woman of Prov. 31 but I have not set out attainable goals for myself. I have just bottled up all the things this woman is. I am a bottle and I have all that this is stored up in my head and in my heart and I feel its just a jumble inside of me and when I shake myself up an explosion of random pieces of what I want to be come out of me.

Haha, does this make sense to anyone?

I just feel so attacked lately. Satan is trying to tear this desire out of me and God is using it to teach me, strengthen me and form me. I'm learning a lot through it, yet I feel I need to be more organized with this goal.

It's already a passion, God knows I desire to have him mold me, yet I know I need to make small steps instead of taking on everything and then just wallowing in the feeling of failure.

So hear it is....

Proverbs 31 (The Message)

Hymn to a Good Wife

 ^10-31 A good woman is hard to find, 
   and worth far more than diamonds.
Her husband trusts her without reserve, 
   and never has reason to regret it.
Never spiteful, she treats him generously 
   all her life long.
She shops around for the best yarns and cottons, 
   and enjoys knitting and sewing.
She's like a trading ship that sails to faraway places 
   and brings back exotic surprises.
She's up before dawn, preparing breakfast 
   for her family and organizing her day.
She looks over a field and buys it, 
   then, with money she's put aside, plants a garden.
First thing in the morning, she dresses for work, 
   rolls up her sleeves, eager to get started.
She senses the worth of her work, 
   is in no hurry to call it quits for the day.
She's skilled in the crafts of home and hearth, 
   diligent in homemaking.
She's quick to assist anyone in need, 
   reaches out to help the poor.
She doesn't worry about her family when it snows; 
   their winter clothes are all mended and ready to wear.
She makes her own clothing, 
   and dresses in colorful linens and silks.
Her husband is greatly respected 
   when he deliberates with the city fathers.
She designs gowns and sells them, 
   brings the sweaters she knits to the dress shops.
Her clothes are well-made and elegant, 
   and she always faces tomorrow with a smile.
When she speaks she has something worthwhile to say, 
   and she always says it kindly.
She keeps an eye on everyone in her household, 
   and keeps them all busy and productive.
Her children respect and bless her; 
   her husband joins in with words of praise:
"Many women have done wonderful things, 
   but you've outclassed them all!"
Charm can mislead and beauty soon fades. 
   The woman to be admired and praised 
   is the woman who lives in the Fear-of-God.
Give her everything she deserves! 
   Festoon her life with praises!


Ok 12 things are highlighted in these passages (the lime green ones go together). My goal is to focus on one at a time. I will commit to focus on one highlighted section a month. So that means a year from now I will have tried to focus on each section, each quality that I strive to have. How amazing that it is exactly a year. :) I believe God will really use this to teach me. Patience will be one of them. Confidence another. And this will definitely form my heart. It will also allow me to focus on what I am going to write and to keep track of my thoughts and what God is doing in my heart. :) 


Wish me luck.... better yet... Pray for me! :) 


(Just to let you all into my personality, I am not usually a goal setter, but this feels so right.)