Daily living

I started a Bible reading plan today. It should be good for me. I am very bad at making goals for myself. More so I dispise it usually. I love to live freely with out restraints so God can lead me, but I am starting to realize that I need to make goals for him to lead me. How awesome is that. He would love me enough to teach me this.

So I started day 1. Genesis 1, Matthew 1, Ezra 1, and Acts 1. Not too bad.

As far as its been going with not being spiteful, God has really been stretching me. It's has been great. Because I have some thing.to focus on, it easy for me to remember in the moment of intense feelings, that I don't want to be spiteful. And I'm this I can tell myself to calm down and realize ultimately my husband is not against me. It's super hard most of the time and I keep fighting back sometimes, but at least the thoughts are there. Soon they will penetrate my heart enough to over ride my triggers. To over ride the fighter in me. To over ride my defence mechanisms.

So that's where I'm at.
Thank you for reading.

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